When Darkness Falls

The morning sun breaks over the horizon,

Dawning on a new day.

My eyes open to its welcoming,

Searching my surroundings.

That is when darkness falls.

It falls upon me,

In a shapeless form.

It weighs me down,

Keeping me pinned.

I do not care,

I have no will to move.

There was so much to do,

Care to be given,

Watching, waiting.

Knowing.

Now there is only empty space.

A space as vast as the universe.

I stand at its center,

Small and insignificant,

Like a tiny grain of sand.

And when darkness falls upon my heart,

I can not help but weep.

When darkness falls,

It wills me to stay hidden.

It enjoys my pain,

As though it feeds upon my soul.

When darkness falls,

I wonder.

I wonder if there was something,

Something I could have done, 

Something that would have made a difference.

I wonder if I could join you.

I wonder if you need me.

The minutes tick by,

Turning into hours,

Turning into days.

I find myself smiling,

Even laughing,

And then the darkness falls,

It falls upon me like a shroud.

My heart is broken.

Beyond repair?

I do not know.

But when darkness falls

I shall embrace its gloom.

I will cry.

I will shout.

I will scream into the blackness.

I will hide within its folds.

When darkness falls.